Well played...

You know, I like to think of myself as someone who will always be there for a friend, even when things get hard. I'm finding myself talking my things out of alot lately. I over-think things and I allow myself to get caught up in drama I could easily avoid.

I hate to think that I don't want to do anymore, shouting 'til my face turns blue, advising until I choke on my words, thinking until my brain literally shuts off. I can only talk to a wall for SO long. Then I feel like I should take a gigantic sledgehammer to the wall..but we all know that doesn't solve anything.

See, I talk to myself all the time, so I do, in fact, know how annoying and repetitive I can be. No need to point it out, Wall. But hey, it'd be nice if maybe you can stop pretending that I'm getting through when I know you're just doing your own thing on the side you keep turned from me.

So, this is what I have to say to you, Wall.

I'm so close to being done. I can't do this forever.




I love having family that actually cares about me enough to tell me that I'M TALKING TO A BRICK WALL AND LOOKING LIKE AN IDIOT.

Oh well. Life happens..I just need to get used to it and man up a bit lol.

Happy(?) New Year

Wow. It's the new year and I'm wondering how it'll work. I'm turning sixteen in February, which means...I get to drive(more) and get a job. We're starting a new curriculum for school this year, and let me tell you, it looks great. I'm excited but also concerned. The LDS prom is on March 19th, which means, I can go if I want. But do I want to? I'll have lots of choices to make, good and bad, but hopefully, I can grow to understand myself even better. This year has opened my eyes quite a bit to how I feel about myself and old friends, new friends.

I know what I want in a friend and now, I'm not afraid to say it.

Anyway, with the epiphany I've had this past year, what will I learn and discover in the new year?
*crosses fingers* Let's hope it's good.